Sa Aking Pag-Alis - Kenji Mercado
Jan 27, 2018
Matagal tagal din akong pumirmi sa isang lugar. Gumagalaw ang buo kong katawan, pero hindi ako umaalis. Madalas akong tumitingin sa mga paa ko, inuusisa kung meron bang pumipigil sa akin sa paghakbang, at sa lahat ng pagkakataon, tanging ang mga tsinelas ko lamang ang naroon.
Alam kong hindi mahina ang loob ko. Alam ko din na kakayanin kong harapin kung ano man ang mayroon sa kabilang dulo. Hindi man ako sigurado sa kahihinatnan ng lahat na ito, pero masaya ako. Dahil sa wakas, aalis na ako.
(I've been stuck in the same place for too long. I can move my whole body, but can't seem to be going anywhere. I look at my feet a little too often, to see if there's anything that's stopping me from moving on, and everytime, all I see are my shoes, nothing more.
I know that I'm not weak. I also know that whatever is out there on the other end, things will be alright. Though what lies ahead is of uncertainty, I am glad. Because after everything, I know I will move forward.)
"Sa Aking Pag-Alis" (On My Departure) is all about forward movement and the realization that moving on takes more than guts and soul for one to be able to pull it off. The work also serves as a reminder that it is not at all bad to take time to breath, to stop, or even to fail, because all of these things are part of the proverbial process of finding one's purpose. Ultimately, it explores the possibility that maybe, the only way to depart from the past, and to learn from it, is not to totally abandon it but rather, to collide with it head on.